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Wednesday, February 6

Grandmother

I started writing this last night...
But my grandmother passed today at 4PM.
I'll be back soon. I'll finish it when I can.


Grandmother is hanging in there. She's doing that thing that we've seen in the medical field. Rallying one day, then steep blood pressure drops at night. Then she rebounds for a day or so. I haven't told the family because it would break their hearts, but I'm sure that this is the pattern I saw in my paternal grandfather. His last rebound was lovely. He sat up and ate with my grandmother, they talked for a long time, even staying after visiting hours were over. She was so happy when she got home that night, sure that he was on the mend and she would bring him back home soon. He had talked to her about their life together. He said all that he needed to say to her, the things we forget to say, about how much she had brought to his life, they reminisced their humble beginnings and all of their adventures along the way.

In the morning, as she was dressing to go to the hospital, the phone rang. It was the hospital calling to tell her that he had passed during the night.

She said she went to the closet and grabbed a handful of his sweaters and just stood there smelling them. Smelling him. For months she did this. Opening the doors and burying her face in his clothes so she could smell him.

8 comments:

SoCal Sal said...

Oh babe, so sorry to hear that, been through similar earlier this year.

{{HUGS}}

Bob said...

I was close to my grandmother. She was someone important in my everyday life until I was four. We remained close over the years. When she died something in me died, too. My best to you during this time in your life. There's only one "grammy" for each of us.

Anonymous said...

You are in my heart and prayers.
Christiane

Trouble said...

Tricia, I am so sorry to read this! *hugs*

But isn't it amazing how powerful the sense of smell can be? Human we are, but our inner animal is alive in what we smell and how we react to those things- seems like all of our strongs emotions are tied into smell. Well, to me anyway.

Sorry I haven't called in so long, just been trying to get my life in order and trying to keep busy.

Zoely said...

sending big good juju to you. Hugs baby.

BTExpress said...

I'm so sorry. :-(

SeaRabbit said...

Sad but nice moments you are sharing here...
I love the idea of smelling my love clothes if ever he was to go first... It is a painful, but still romantic image for me...
I wish yu are as well as possible..

Mr Manic Depressive said...

Sorry to hear about your grandmother.